Who used the big girl potty on April 30 2009?

JOSIE DID!!!!

No, I wasn't able to take a picture on the potty, the camera was downstairs, and i couldn't leave her all alone during her big achievement to grab the camera, so I took a post potty/celebratory juice/ 3 min after picture. I woke her up with kisses and noticed that her diaper was dry, so I didnt have to change it yet. I had a brilliant question, I asked her if she would like to use the big girl potty, to which she enthusiastically shook her head Yes! So I carried her into the bathroom, pulled down her jammie shorts, took off her diaper and put her on the Winnie the Pooh potty seat, and she smiled her sleepy head smile and jabbered and pointed at the toilet paper, and i told her that she could use some after she goes pee pee, and then.... *drum roll * IT HAPPENED! For the first time ever! She PEE'D IN THE POTTY!! I yelled YAY! and clapped my hands and told her how proud of her I was, and smiling from ear to ear I gave her some TP and she wiped up and threw it where it goes, and I Swooped her up in my arms and danced around the bathroom with her, bare bottom and all. 

I then put her diaper back on and jammie shorts, and was taking her downstairs with her and her "t" (blanket) and thats when she asked "aah daddy?" with her hand out conveying a question. (translation: Where's Daddy? He would be so proud too!) I said Daddy is at work, but don't you worry, Im about to text him and tell him what a big girl you are!

Kisses and Hugs for Josie! 21 months old, and she wanted to use the potty and did it!

Even if the potty training doesn't start for a while, Im happy for her and her ability to try new things. My baby girl really is having big moments continually proving to her mama, that she's becoming a big girl like her big sister Avery. :) 

Click here to hear how Josie'e mama loves her like a rock. 

today, today

feels like a sunday. 

i hear michael tickling josie upstairs. 

its a great noise... giggling.

Click here to hear my song for Josie today.

Isn't She Lovely? Isn't She Wonderful?

click here to listen to the song

Confirmation

Yesterday it was confirmed that the pregnancy had self terminated, the embryo was at some point reabsorbed before its heart was ever beating. Im glad to be alive, and healthy and to have only had to deal with, what I have so far. Losing a baby that had really already started to grow etc and then losing it would have been horrible to deal with the loss of it. Anyhow on to brighter pastures. :) Luck and love. Click here to hear the song that got me through this all.

Late Easter Post

I meant to write a little and post pics from Easter. When we woke up on Easter morning, I figured that the Easter Bunny had come to visit Josie, so I changed her diaper upstairs and gave her pony tails. Dad went downstairs to get her some Juice, and confirmed that the Eater Bunny had indeed made a visit to our living room, since it was rainy bad weather that morning. So when we came down Josie saw what was around, and she was already armed with her Basket for collecting. :) Later that day Aunt Sarah and Uncle Andrew stopped by to wish us happy Easter and see if Josie liked the Easter goods they got her. In the afternoon, after her nap, we went over to Rick and Kellys and had a nice semi traditional Easter dinner or late lunch, and Josie had another little easter egg hunt there and got an Easter basket there too! Good day. And my car got a little more fixed by Michael and Rick. They started the project after Christmas lol. 

Click here for a good Easter song.

Bad News?

Yesterday was suppose to be a much better day than it turned out to be. Yesterday was or first Dr. appointment. We were suppose to see the heartbeat, but we didnt. Dr. Wilson caught a glimpse of what we thought would have shown the heartbeat, but it was at a weird angle. We were able to see an abnormally shaped Yolk sac. It was much more ovular than normal, and she said that a heartbeat should have been there, as the size of the sac should have put me at about 6 weeks. So, we were prepared to expect the worst. By Thursday we will get the results of the 48 hour bloodwork that will test my HCG levels, and if they are not as high as they should be, then it can be safe to say that it was a miscarriage. Levels start at zero and double every two days, therefore I should be at about 1200 or higher. Its minutely possible that its just a late bloomer, but last night when I went to the bathroom at midnight, there was some bright red spotting when I wiped. Then this morning it was brown. I havent gotten a period yet, and sometimes spotting can present itself in a normal pregnancy, but I cant help but not let myself think either way about it. 

I cried for a moment when I went to bed. It has to be the hormones. I mean its incredibly sad, but I know why pregnancies self terminate. It means something is wrong, and I have to say I would rather any of this happen sooner than later in a pregnancy. We have another appointment for this coming Monday. Worst case scenario, we will move on, we will be thankful for Josie and Avery, and if we get pregnant again and it sticks we will be happier than if we hadnt gone through a miscarriage. 

We will see what happens. Im going to take it easy today. It cant hurt any :)

Click here for the song

Uneventful Thursday

Again today I mostly cleaned. There are still things to be done, laundry here, sweeping there, straightening, organizing. The Floor boards have even caught my attention, as they need attention. I made a pretty good dinner from things at the house already. Swordfish with Santa Fe rice and a Salad. All I have for pictures are the ones to mark the beginning of my pregnancy.  :) 

Its not letting me upload them now, I will try again later. 

Click here for good music to go along with a day like this...

Dear Diary

So I made the appointment today to go make one of many visits to come at Dr. Wilson OBGYN. The appointment is on Monday at 2:20 p.m. The only reason its so soon is because well, that was the next available appointment, and to be honest I am of the belief that if you know you have a condition (in my case pregnancy) get the OK from the Dr., first. So that I can relax and not worry that the cramps that I am having, could be symptoms of an ectopic pregnancy. I swear I'm not a worry wort, I would rather just be safe and not sorry. 

Im quitting smoking. I quit during my pregnancy with Josie, then at some point I had one here then one there... then I was smoking again. Its a nice break, its enjoyable especially in the morning with a cup of coffee. Im quitting though. only had 3 today, and happy. Michael is going to quit too, so YAY for good family choices. 

I feel like this pregnancy is a good excuse on top of the other amazing excuse to write about my thoughts or days (being Josie) I mean to jot things down, then never do, then the ideas and cute funny stories or things that were simple pleasures, fade quickly before my sleepy head drinks its first cup of coffee each morning. 

Hell if Amanda started a blog because I did, I had better keep up with her. 

speaking of Amanda, I go to see her today for like the first time in like 2 or 3 weeks. I was in Georgia visiting my sister Kelly and her new son Finnegan and his daddy Brian. Josie went with me and we visited the Atlanta Aquarium with Grandpa Jim (see above image) 

The trip was a great one, I miss seeing my family. It usually happens per person now about once a year which is lame, but everyone lives in different places. *sigh* Oh well. I think the trip was a little long though considering my sister had a new baby, and i had my 20 month old daughter, and there were mostly rainy days, and not the normal selection of toys etc, it all made for me being happy to be home and for them to have their house back to themselves. But thats why its been so long since I have seen Amanda. She is pretty much my person. Like on Grey's Anatomy, either you get it or you don't. She has a 2 month old who is so damn cute with amazing cheeks, but her eyes and little mouth are just so sweet and pretty. Josie needs to visit Lainey Bug again too. Laine is a whole new kind of baby that Josie has never seen. Ahhh, so yeah. I think Josie is in dire need of a park trip tomorrow. I will begin doing Prenatal Yoga in the living room at some point, maybe during nap time. I have worked a lot around the house the past couple of days, so maybe tomorrow will be a little lighter of a load to do. 

Cheers, til tomorrow hopefully. 

Appropriate song to go along with it all, to hear click here

oh brother, or sister? hahahah

So, yesterday we found out that we are expecting again. My second pregnancy. I was shocked and happy yet a little in disbelief. I mean we agreed on another baby, yet we don"t really try or not try, as to not put too much pressure either way on it. It will happen when it happens, right? Well probably around St. Patrick's Day it happened. The same time when my nephew was born. :) I'm happy to say that I at least enjoyed my last weekend of not knowing I was pregnant because it was too soon, but I had 2 Guiness and relaxed in their hot tub lol. Oh well, those things will again be put on hold until a later day, post pregnancy. So many things are different this go round. I am not as nervous as I was with my pregnancy with Josie. I think its because I know more, I don't have to get use to going from just me to always caring for a baby. I am use to that. Josie is getting to a fairly independent stage. She will be 2 and a half when the baby arrives. The due date should be around December 9 or sometime around there. Of course I want to know the gender. I feel like if I know what the gender is, then it helps me to connect with the baby. It makes it easier to prepare for things too, like if its a girl then we have mostly everything we will need, but maybe a baby shower if its a boy. I think Josie will love being a big sister. She does so well around babies, and likes to be a little mama herself :) I have from now until December for us to have a lot of good one on one time, make her really feel loved, and for her to enjoy the last remaining days of her being the center of my attention. 

I am crossing my fingers but not holding my breath that this pregnancy will be a little more enjoyable. I was sooo tired, and nauseated, and then towards the end i had a bladder infection that killed my back, but it took a while to get diagnosed so people thought I complained a lot. Maybe since I am not working at a job where I need to be presentable and out the door by 6am. I am hoping that I will be able to take it easier if need be, and really try to enjoy more of the pregnancy, with Josie.